In pursuit of eloquence
I've been having trouble writing recently. I keep starting posts and not finishing them. My words feel forced, and I can't find the right words to express anything.
During this mental block, here is a list of some things I wish that I had the eloquence to write about, to hopefully ignite a journalistic flame.
1. my most recent painting about a man and a woman and their similarities to Cyclops and Athena
2. how I am about to go part time at Knox Heritage starting next week and how this makes me anxious, nervous, and extremely excited
3. how I hope that more time to work on certain projects does not turn into me lazing about my apartment with Juicy
4. my recent infatuation with intelligent, kind, and respectable men rather than my former infatuation with... the opposite...
5. how surprising the depth of my sadness is that my neighbor Hunter and his dog have just moved
6. how tornadoes have got me thinking about my masked materialism
7. how my last trip to the mall was transformational, how it resulted in me going on a jog instead of drinking beer, and how I can't get my mind off a particular purple BCBG dress (bizarre)
8. how I really want shoes that are "architectural" (also bizarre)
9. wondering if one can be fashionable and not materialistic at the same time
10. the BS that is existentialism
11. moving to a bigger city
12. how another friend moving away has gotten me thinking about my past inability to be honest with others/myself, and my current gratefulness to be in a healthier emotional state
13. how the selling of my grandfather's lakehouse feels like him dying again and also like closing a door to my childhood
14. how wanting to lead a simpler life has me wondering what that means for all the boxes I've filled over the years with the intention to make scrapbooks
15. how trivia night might be the most productive way to drink beer
16. The lore of Juicy- how she came to me, why I love her, and why she makes me not want to have children
17. the intricacies of being friends with males (and by friends I mean just friends)
18. How the moving away of friends means the probability of new people to enter my life. I wonder who the lucky ones will be...
19. How I've been incessantly listening to dance music, the reasons and implications of this (listen at your own risk/don't judge me)
20. How, like John Mayer (who I used to make fun of my freshman year roommate for listening to, but now I admittedly really like), I desire for myself and the people I love to be able to say what's on our minds and in our hearts.
On that note that makes me feel a little vulnerable, here's to future eloquence.
During this mental block, here is a list of some things I wish that I had the eloquence to write about, to hopefully ignite a journalistic flame.
1. my most recent painting about a man and a woman and their similarities to Cyclops and Athena
2. how I am about to go part time at Knox Heritage starting next week and how this makes me anxious, nervous, and extremely excited
3. how I hope that more time to work on certain projects does not turn into me lazing about my apartment with Juicy
4. my recent infatuation with intelligent, kind, and respectable men rather than my former infatuation with... the opposite...
5. how surprising the depth of my sadness is that my neighbor Hunter and his dog have just moved
6. how tornadoes have got me thinking about my masked materialism
7. how my last trip to the mall was transformational, how it resulted in me going on a jog instead of drinking beer, and how I can't get my mind off a particular purple BCBG dress (bizarre)
8. how I really want shoes that are "architectural" (also bizarre)
9. wondering if one can be fashionable and not materialistic at the same time
10. the BS that is existentialism
11. moving to a bigger city
12. how another friend moving away has gotten me thinking about my past inability to be honest with others/myself, and my current gratefulness to be in a healthier emotional state
13. how the selling of my grandfather's lakehouse feels like him dying again and also like closing a door to my childhood
14. how wanting to lead a simpler life has me wondering what that means for all the boxes I've filled over the years with the intention to make scrapbooks
15. how trivia night might be the most productive way to drink beer
16. The lore of Juicy- how she came to me, why I love her, and why she makes me not want to have children
17. the intricacies of being friends with males (and by friends I mean just friends)
18. How the moving away of friends means the probability of new people to enter my life. I wonder who the lucky ones will be...
19. How I've been incessantly listening to dance music, the reasons and implications of this (listen at your own risk/don't judge me)
20. How, like John Mayer (who I used to make fun of my freshman year roommate for listening to, but now I admittedly really like), I desire for myself and the people I love to be able to say what's on our minds and in our hearts.
On that note that makes me feel a little vulnerable, here's to future eloquence.